It's always at nighttime that I feel like this.  So utterly pathetic.  And then I feel horrible for feeling like that.  Maybe nighttime isn't the best time to type something I intend to post.  I'll most likely look at this some afternoon and feel embarassed.

I've been meaning to comment on one of the recent chapters of Naruto.  My friends told me (both guys by the way - I just found out a lot of my guy friends read manga :3) that Sakura said - and he said - and GWAH...I can't think of either of them without remembering that 3X

Also, I found out during English class that schizophrenia is a disorder where you hallucinate a lot.  I swear I've heard that it was multiple personalities - but both my friends who took Introduction to Anthropology, Psychology, and Sociology said that was Multiple Personality disorder.  What about those fanfictions that say that Sakura and Zetsu...but I know I shouldn't rely on fanfiction for that XD

Oh, here.  Straight from Wikipedia:

"Schizophrenia (pronounced /ˌskɪtsɵˈfrɛniə/ or /ˌskɪtsɵˈfriːniə/), from the Greek roots skhizein (σχίζειν, "to split") and phrēn, phren- (φρήν, φρεν-; "mind") is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by abnormalities in the perception or expression of reality.
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Despite its etymology, schizophrenia is not the same as dissociative identity disorder, previously known as multiple personality disorder or split personality, with which it has been erroneously confused.^"

Okay, then.  I feel disillusioned.

See, I always say that I hate school.  I told that to everyone who brought it up during the summer, then bade them change the subject.  When I started school, I honestly felt dead.  I did all my homework and felt so stoic that...I don't know.  I was a loner, I sat alone, none of my good friends were in my classes.
Then the second day came around and some people moved around.  I got to sit with one of my friends in first period.  I started getting used to my old friends again in second.  That same girl is in my third period class, and I moved a desk over so I could sit with someone I met last year.
I discovered that Bio isn't so bad, that math is only bad because I didn't like the homework, and that I had a reason to love English again.  I'm hanging out with new people, am sitting with a bunch of guy friends at lunch, and I like it.  I'm not so exclusive anymore.  I was always kind of 'weird', but I found people who like me for it.
By writing this, I'm improving my attitude a little more.
And we all know what that means.
More FanFiction!

I posted this on Fanfiction yesterday for Kakuzu's birthday.

Title: Now Dance
Author: Okuyukashii
Characters/pairings: KakuHina
Genre: General/romance
Word count: 1187
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto.
Rating: T (lyrics have swearing)
Summary: It took a song to give her confidence, and her confidence to make him interested. "I'm a female in a club. You are a male in a club. What's the problem?" For Kakuzu's birthday. /KakuHina/

(Now Dance)

 

Damn, this is nice.  Listening to a playlist with all my current favourite songs and reading and writing fanfiction without a care for school or deadlines apart from character birthday tributes.  I love summer.

Title: Mornings
Author: Okuyukashii
Characters/pairings: DeiSaku
Genre: General/humour
Word count: 217
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto.
Rating: K+
Summary: Sakura broke into his room in the middle of the night.  Then left without doing anything with him.  That was so not worth waking up for. /DeiSaku/

(Mornings)

I just fell in love with the song Animal I Have Become again recently.
Yesterday, in fact.  See, I was eating pizza, so I was therefore too lazy to skip songs unless it's one of those songs I only listen to in certain moods.
Then I heard it.
See, my iTunes says I've played it 400-something times.  Since last year.  The next song on the most played list?  Fairytale by Saturday Night at the Apollo.  300-something times.  Big difference - it was my longterm obsession - Animal I Have Become was my LOVE.
But even so, I grew tired of it.  I started to force myself to listen to it.  It didn't feel good.  Soon, I was skipping along with all my other older songs and only listening when I felt up to it.
Back to the pizza shop.
When I heard the beginning sounds, they came loud and clear in my iPod earbuds - I haven't heard it like that in so long.  I loved it again.
So at seven o'clock in the evening in a Pizza Pizza, I was happily listening to my all-time favourite song.
It was nice.

This is late, but I posted a story on FanFiction and forgot to do it here.  Written for Vesper chan's contest on FanFiction.net!

Title: something like a painful memory
Author: Okuyukashii
Characters/pairings: SasuSaku
Genre: Angst/tragedy
Word count: 2415
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto or the song Angels by Within Temptation
Rating: K+
Summary: /AU/ and he stood, gun in hand, and tried to forget fairy dust smiles and the pink-haired girl who was there from the start. /SasuSaku/

(something like a painful memory)

Title: Chances to Slip
Author: Okuyukashii
Characters/pairings: Hyuuga Neji and Gaara
Genre: Angst/Hurt/Comfort
Word Count: 1618
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto.
Rating: K+ (Just angst is all)
Summary: Neji's slowly falling, and when he meets someone going in the same direction, he wonders whether he should be surprised that it's Gaara.

(Chances to Slip)